As a single, plus-sized woman, this was my first time travelling alone. So that was a big deal in and of it’s self. I had my aunt warning me that I was going to be “KILLED” in Mexico.
My anxiety was built up around the fears about my physical body. My thoughts were – will I fit on the plane? OMG, I have to wear a bathing suit. OMG, what about my hair – I’m a Black Woman!!! I can’t get my hair wet. And old negative body thoughts came rushing through my mind. Let’s just say I was sweating and a hot mess – and it wasn’t because of the heat.
I worked hard to go to this conference. I had my ticket. It was non-refundable. I was not going to let my thoughts ruin my time on this trip. The thoughts came and went but because I had worked hard to fall in love and accept my body as it is – where it is – I ventured on.
On the last day of the conference, I challenged myself – and asked Bif Naked to take a picture with me. I shared with her how her talk was very inspiring and her experiences reminded me of my sister’s story. I shared with her how her story, had gave me great insight in how to helping my sister. I am not a lover of tattoos for myself – my sister loves them – so I wanted to show my sister Bif’s amazing tattoos to inspire her. So I walked up to Bif, feeling the fear, feeling those negative fat thoughts of (OMG FAT GIRLS DON’T WHERE WHITE – you look so FAT!!) and DID IT ANYWAYS.
I walked to Bif. Told her a bit about myself and my sister and had this amazing experience. I AM SO HAPPY I DID IT.
I looked at this picture and see a woman (me) who looks beautiful. I see a woman who is wearing her mother’s pants and felt honoured that I had a tiny bit of my mom at the conference. I see a woman who challenged herself and walked through her fears. I felt the fear and did it anyways!!!
Body Love is not always feeling love for your body 100% of the time – body love is compassionate love for yourself – it’s embracing your body – it’s seeing yourself as a beautiful being – no matter your size – true body love is really soul love. – and it is a daily flowing process.
Lots of Love,
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